Letting Go of Needing to Know

It’s hard for Mary to process God’s favor toward her.

“God favors you!”

Troubled feeling.

“Don’t be troubled! You’re going to bear a child! The Messiah!”

“How can I bear a child?”

Read through the story and see how she responds to each of these first two proclamations (notice, it’s not the angels appearance that troubles her):

Luke 1:26 In the sixth month the angel Gabriel was sent from God to a city of Galilee named Nazareth, 27 to a virgin betrothed to a man whose name was Joseph, of the house of David. And the virgin’s name was Mary. 28 And he came to her and said, “Greetings, O favored one, the Lord is with you!” 29 But she was greatly troubled at the saying, and tried to discern what sort of greeting this might be. 30 And the angel said to her, “Do not be afraid, Mary, for you have found favor with God. 31 And behold, you will conceive in your womb and bear a son, and you shall call his name Jesus. 32 He will be great and will be called the Son of the Most High. And the Lord God will give to him the throne of his father David, 33 and he will reign over the house of Jacob forever, and of his kingdom there will be no end.” 

34 And Mary said to the angel, “How will this be, since I am a virgin?” 

35 And the angel answered her, “The Holy Spirit will come upon you, and the power of the Most High will overshadow you; therefore the child to be born will be called holy—the Son of God. 36 And behold, your relative Elizabeth in her old age has also conceived a son, and this is the sixth month with her who was called barren. 37 For nothing will be impossible with God.” 38 And Mary said, “Behold, I am the servant of the Lord; let it be to me according to your word.” And the angel departed from her. 

Finally, notice her third response. “Behold, I am the servant of the Lord; let it be done to me according to your word.”

Despite the fact that God’s news all works out to be good news, I always want to know more.

“God loves you.”

Strange combination of doubt and boredom.

“He has a good plan for you.”

“How can He have a good plan for me?”

Yet, at some point in this process or assurance and direction, God’s worked in my heart enough to learn that I am His servant and His will for me is good. I want to know the details. I want to know who will give me perfect advice, how we’re going to afford what’s next, and what the dress code it, but sometimes all God clarifies for me is His own power, goodness, and wisdom.

You know what? God’s power, goodness, and wisdom are enough for me to go. That’s enough for me to say, “Behold, I am the servant of the Lord; let it be to me according to his word.”

Righteous People with a “Boring Testimony”

How often have I heard students say that their testimony is “boring”? Yesterday I read Kim’s story, recorded by Justin Holcomb, of being rescued from the sex trade, reconnected with Jesus, and brought into a new chapter of healing and helping others. What a beautiful testimony; praise God and tell the good news! However, her unexpected, suspenseful, and dramatic story–be it all the more edifying of a story because of those things–does not mean my story needs to be any of those things. Consider the lives of Zechariah and Elizabeth:

Luke 1: Inasmuch as many have undertaken to compile a narrative of the things that have been accomplished among us, just as those who from the beginning were eyewitnesses and ministers of the word have delivered them to us, it seemed good to me also, having followed all things closely for some time past, to write an orderly account for you, most excellent Theophilus, that you may have certainty concerning the things you have been taught. 

In the days of Herod, king of Judea, there was a priest named Zechariah, of the division of Abijah. And he had a wife from the daughters of Aaron, and her name was Elizabeth. And they were both righteous before God, walking blamelessly in all the commandments and statutes of the Lord. But they had no child, because Elizabeth was barren, and both were advanced in years. 

Now while he was serving as priest before God when his division was on duty, according to the custom of the priesthood, he was chosen by lot to enter the temple of the Lord and burn incense. 10 And the whole multitude of the people were praying outside at the hour of incense. 11 And there appeared to him an angel of the Lord standing on the right side of the altar of incense. 12 And Zechariah was troubled when he saw him, and fear fell upon him. 13 But the angel said to him, “Do not be afraid, Zechariah, for your prayer has been heard, and your wife Elizabeth will bear you a son, and you shall call his name John. 14 And you will have joy and gladness, and many will rejoice at his birth, 15 for he will be great before the Lord. And he must not drink wine or strong drink, and he will be filled with the Holy Spirit, even from his mother’s womb. 16 And he will turn many of the children of Israel to the Lord their God, 17 and he will go before him in the spirit and power of Elijah, to turn the hearts of the fathers to the children, and the disobedient to the wisdom of the just, to make ready for the Lord a people prepared.” 

18 And Zechariah said to the angel, “How shall I know this? For I am an old man, and my wife is advanced in years.” 19 And the angel answered him, “I am Gabriel. I stand in the presence of God, and I was sent to speak to you and to bring you this good news. 20 And behold, you will be silent and unable to speak until the day that these things take place, because you did not believe my words, which will be fulfilled in their time.” 21 And the people were waiting for Zechariah, and they were wondering at his delay in the temple. 22 And when he came out, he was unable to speak to them, and they realized that he had seen a vision in the temple. And he kept making signs to them and remained mute. 23 And when his time of service was ended, he went to his home. 

24 After these days his wife Elizabeth conceived, and for five months she kept herself hidden, saying, 25 “Thus the Lord has done for me in the days when he looked on me, to take away my reproach among people.” 

Zechariah and Elizabeth were from religious families. They grew up going to God’s house. They knew the commandments and statues of the Lord. They had “boring” testimonies. By this point, they were probably in the Saturday School for senior citizens and didn’t make it on a lot of promotional materials. Yet, they are the first characters we read about in Luke’s gospel account and we are quickly told: they were both righteous before God, walking blamelessly in all the commandments and statutes of the Lord.

After pausing for a moment and considering the beauty of this eulogy, notice three things about this faithful couple:

  1. They were entirely in God’s plan. You are entirely in God’s plan. If you look ahead to Luke 1:58, you’ll see their neighbors and relatives rejoicing with them upon the birth of their son John. The unexpected nature of his arrival sets the stage for his ministry, a ministry of getting people’s attention. You may wish you could trade circumstances with someone else, but Romans 8:28 promises that God is working all of these things for your good.
  2. They felt like second-class people. This particular stigma has changed over the years, but Elizabeth’s gratitude in 1:25 is for God’s removal of her reproach. She felt like the people around her scoffed at her for her childlessness. Whether that particular prospect is daunting to you or not, you know what it feels like to be self-conscious in the others’ presence. Perhaps you haven’t been put into a hard life, but you have been put into a hard world. Knowing that God’s plan is for your deliverance as much as for Elizabeth’s, you can fearlessly draw near to those who bear reproach and bring a message of hope and love. It may not be long before others misunderstand and scoff at your too, but God sees and take away your reproach in the end.
  3. Zechariah and Elizabeth play their own role in the bigger story of Luke’s gospel. You need to play your own role in the bigger story of God’s world. If a Zechariah-type were to walk up to the pulpit and share his testimony on Sunday morning, it probably wouldn’t rend hearts with the same conviction and grief as if Kim were to do the same. Yet, God made Zechariah how He made him, where He made him. In fact, he is uniquely equipped to help others understand God’s Word or bring sacrifices on behalf of the people. With the right combination of self-awareness and repentance from sin, you need to be becoming the person God has made you to be.

We make far too many assumptions. When it comes to people who grew up religious, we either look at them and assume that they continue along as who they’ve always been, or we see it in ourselves and we assume that since we’ve been around church so long, this is all there is. Stop. Examine your heart. Consider God’s commandments and commission. Repent. Forge ahead, that it might be said of you and your household, they were righteous before God, walking blamelessly in all the commandments and statues of the Lord.